First Post

I'm starting a blog. I don't really know why but I am. There are millions of blogs out there and I've always found it strange that people would be so willing to share their inner thoughts with the whole world. In a lot of ways I envy this candidness. There are several blogs that I read on a regular basis because their creators and I share a lot of the same interests or their posts provide me with some kind of sanity. Like, I'm not the only person in the world who feels a certain way.

I don't know if I'll ever share this blog with my friends. If I know that my friends or family are going to be reading this then I'll start to feel self-conscious, and I'll begin to censor myself or overthink my entries. I want this to be a place where I can just let it flow and not worry about what other people are going to think about it. In real life, I have a tendency to over think my responses to the point where I don't sound natural at all. Or I'll become so paralyzed by insecurities that I end up not saying anything and then I come across as boring or flat. When really in my head there's so much stuff going on that I can't even begin to express it. It's really exhausting and I don't want this blog to ever feel that way.

So I guess that's the answer as to why I'm doing this. I know I could easily just put all this in a word document or a diary but for some reason I want to put it on the web. I like the idea that anybody can stumble upon this blog and start reading about my life. Somebody who doesn't know me but finds a certain familiarity in what I have to say. I'd like to think that maybe it would help them in some wierd way. I hope that by sorting my life out on here will be helpful to others who also need to sort their life out.